I’ve had a horrible stomach virus for the last few days. I FINALLY feel better and today I ate normal food and handled it fine, so is it weird that I seriously want some sushi right now?? lol hmm… I’ll let you know how it goes.
Sometimes I get legitimately sickened by the “have to’s” of society… I don’t want to work for the rest of my life, I don’t want to be “responsible” constantly. I want to be able to get a massive tattoo and a pretty purple streak in my hair and still be able to get a worthwhile job. I want to be able to go to school and concentrate on only school. I...
Woke up with a horrid pain in my side. The way it’s moving and the feeling of frequently needing to pee makes me 97% sure that it’s yet another kidney stone. :( this will be 3 in two years. At least this one isn’t as horrible as the last two. The pain is relatively bearably and I didn’t feel it until it was pretty low. Hopefully I can pass it without getting hospitalized....
I’m falling in love, and I’m not scared at all. :)
“Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.” — Josephine Hart (via filthyandfine) I definitely consider myself damaged. I don’t think that damaged is necessarily a negative thing though. This quote makes perfect sense to me. I’ve been through very hard times, and I’ve survived. I will keep surviving. God doesn’t give you things you can’t handle....
So guess what...
I have a boyfriend :) Facebook legit and all lol.
This may sound dumb,
but in the last year I’ve had to deal with the most horrible occurrences. Worst of all being that I lost my mom. Even though I cover it up with a smile I’ve been very sad and angry inside. I truly believed that everything in my life had been tainted. Until this happened. I met a boy who made me start to feel again. He makes me smile. He makes me giggle. And he makes me feel special and...
Right now I am sitting in my bed, still in my pajamas mind you, avoiding doing homework. I hate that I procrastinate, but seriously, I have no motivation to get this crap done! Friday night I saw Maroon 5, Train, and Matt Nathanson in Dallas, it was FANTASTIC! I had so much fun! I danced my ass off, and I got to touch the lead singer of Train! AHHHH! :) Last night I went to the rodeo, yeehaw,...
Same fucking shit, different fucking day. I haven’t had a day this bad in like 2 months. I new it wasn’t going to last though. Right back to the same bull shit at work as before.
I honestly don’t think that I’ve ever been this happy or comfortable with someone. He’s so beyond amazing. I seriously hit the jackpot. I absolutely adore this boy. :) -RHWM
This boy this boy.
So this weekend he’s taking me for a picnic, and apparently an acoustic guitar may be involved. :) Seriously, this boy is going to steal my heart… And I just might let him. I didn’t know that these kind of guys existed anymore. -RHWM
My tummy hurts.
Other than that I had a fantastic weekend. :) Friday: hung out with my sissyboo and watched movies. Saturday: hung out with Brit, listened to some pretty rad bands, and got to see this boy who is slowly starting to warm this icy heart of mine lol. Sunday: church with Brit, great lunch, great nap, then watched the TrueBlood finale with my lovely friend. :) now I’m going to find a movie...
This boy is pretty amazing :) Night tumblr -RHWM
When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn’t make the darkness go away....– Neil Gaiman (via harmoniam) This is fantastic
Cuddling would be the most fantastic thing in the world right now.
More details tomorrow I promise, but for now all I can say is BEST FIRST DATE EVER!!!!! Literally people, I hit the jackpot with this guy!!! :) :) RHWM
I decided that I would fall asleep to Rent last night… Bad idea! I ended up staying awake till almost 2 bc I can’t not sing along when I watch Rent! Lol Today: I’m so freaking tired lol
I don’t want to be in this class. I’m tweaking on Starbucks and my attention span is that of a gnat…. Help!
How do you know when you’ve become a text whore??? I always worry that I text people too much… TEXT ME BACK DAMNIT! I hate feeling like the loser sending the texts and not receiving any. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I need to go to bed.
Just for the record...
I’m so freaking ready to be off work!! Seriously, shoving a pencil into my eye sounds better than working for 2 more hours. Also, my imagination has been on overdrive all day. My ability to build ppl up in my head is amazing!! RHWM
So I am trying really hard not to spaz out. I have a tendency to expect the worst out of every situation. I know it is ridiculous, but it’s so much easier to go ahead and anticipate that everyone is going to let you down, because then when they do you are slightly less heartbroken. I really need to stop self sabotaging, but it always seems that when good things start happening to me it is...
Knock on wood:
I think this could be the start of something good. :)
Oh Friday nights.
So I’ve already mentioned that the guy that I am talking to is in a band… Well, last night his band was playing and I was determined to go. I spent most of the day texting my cousin seeing if he knew anyone who worked at this bar or if he’d ever been and whether they card at the door etc… (I won’t be 21 till Nov, therefore I have to be sneaky). I had yet to meet my...
Mostly what I miss is
Holding hands, kissing, and having someone to cuddle up next to. I really want someone to have a lazy Sunday with. Just staying in bed all day together, watching movies, and completely ignoring the outside world. I guess I better not hold my breath. -RHWM
So I'm Slightly Terrified to Say This.
But I REALLY REALLY REALLY like this guy that i’m talking to. He’s wonderful. He is handsome, smart, funny, talented, and sweet. I really hope that this works out, I will be very disappointed if within the next couple of weeks I have to emo post bc he turns out to be crazy or something. lol Seriously though, he’s awesome. He not only is way into music like I am, but he is...
When a guy texts you on a relatively regular basis, and then one of your texts goes unanswered so a few days later you send another… But then that goes unanswered too. So now you’re stuck in the whole “should I shouldn’t I” dilemma. It’s awkward, and you don’t want to seem like a stalker, but you also are thinking that maybe he just didn’t get your...
I don’t care if it hurts I want to have control I want a perfect body I...– Creep by Radiohead
This may be tmi...but
Sex has been on my mind a lot lately. I never wanted to do it with my ex but that’s bc I wasn’t happy and I was emotionally disconnected. Seriously though, I think about sex a lot!!! Lol I even have sex dreams. My mind is an episode of sex and the city right now lol. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not into one night stands. I’ve only been with two guys and I was in a...
Time for a bitching blog.
SO TODAY SUCKS! I am SUPER PMS’ing. I’m not supposed to start for like almost a week, but I’m HUGE and broken out, and already cramping. It is horrible. Also, the freaking college that I go to is full of DUMBASSES. I had to apply for an emergency loan today because they have yet to process my FAFSA… I just registered for my first attempt at the GRE… wow, Grad...
There is a party going on in my living room
jessicabruce: and I’m just chillin back in my bedroom on tumblr. whata loser. I had to steal this bc I love it!
Some days I miss you so much I can’t breathe. Other days I’m so angry with you that I want to scream. But everyday I love you.
So everybody put your best suit or dress on, lets make believe that we are...– The New Year - Death Cab for Cutie This is the first song that I ever heard by Death Cab, I fell in love.
I think I might want...
Another tattoo… I have 5 right now. A Jesus Fish on my right foot A dagger on each hip John 1:5 on my left rib cage and A Dandelion with my mom’s initials under it on the right side of my back. The dandelion is on my back like right at the base of my ribs, and it is being blown by the wind, and the little pieces make their way up my back and turn into birds that end on my shoulder. I...
I’m going to be making a lot of changes. Whether I’m happy or not, I’m done trying to cover up my feelings by partying too much and getting in situations where I kiss random dudes and flirt too much. Everyone knows that when you are sad and lonely attention feels good, but I’m just starting to realize that I’m losing myself a little bit. I have never been a big party...
Shreveport with my Brit tonight. Her fiance lives here, so we are literally just having a relaxing chill night and probably going to see a movie and window shop tomorrow. :) oh, and I met this super cute boy. He’s in a band :) I have also decided that all of the other guys that I know are nuts. I’m completely giving up on Sweet and Sexy. Sweet is kind of a stalker, and Sexy is way...
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I miss Erika Moss so freaking much I can’t stand it!! :)